Recently, the weather has been becoming cooler... Myheart also feel some coldness... :( 3 years 11 months & 2 days n is still counting.. having this coldness feeling from u recently... don know is it long term relationship will cause the relation to become tan or wat... i just feel upset when u let mi have that feeling.. not like the past we will have lots of laughter, teasing, hugging, kissing etc... But now is like no sweet moments... i felt my heart is heavy & aching... It when after our phuket trip, i then feel that kinda of feeling... maybe u nv notice but i can feel it...
maybe u may think i think too much... too sensitive... too stress for exam.. or maybe having pms etc.. but, i really feel it.. that kinda of feeling that u urself also don know... u nv know that i cry on sat night (28 nov) while u r asleep ba... i didn't tell u the next day cos i don want u to know that i cry because of this... u may think i sound so silly for crying... i just can't control... ;(
actually i cry ytd night again.. :(
sometime u may find how come my mood suddenly change so fast... each time we talk a topic, somehow u make mi feel u r unwilling to listen or reply in a impatient tone... :( i don want to argue so kept quiet with a disappointed face... but i doubt u notice my facial expression...
i try to control my emotional... but each time is hard... i don want our relationship become like that.. i don't want to be the ending.. i want to be the longest n happier moments like our starting... :( can that happened?
i write this entry, just that i need a place to let out... i'm scared to speak to u about this cos u will get piss... or maybe feel irritating... & also i don't know how to open my mouth n say to u...
i guess u wun see this post... but even see.. i hope we can make thing out... i not blaming u.. is just the feeling n i need to let out... so post it... u can pretend nv see this post...
i guess i love u more than u love mi... that y u nv have such problem... maybe i'm the most emotional want or sensitive want who will have this problem surrounded mi...
Exam is coming... i had nothing in my head... this topic we talk about it ytd night... do u remember? in the end, we kept quiet right after some discussion... i doubt u remember... ;(
i think i shall not write any boring n silly post... guess i should think positive... think lively... forget about this negative thinking... concentrate about the future... it just make myself suffer only... i kept on repeating this so many time to myself... but it seem like not working... :( Haiz
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