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M i over sensitive?
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Recently, i feel so stressed out. Mainly becos of my exam is coming n i don really prepare yet... Just go back school last mon & ytd for revision n tips... but it seem like i have to study all... :( My period is late as i'm too stresses out... actually not only exam that stress mi, there is other... Like money which is always my very main reason... like relationship... i don know is it related to relationship ma... but i had the feeling... i don know is it i over sensitive or i pms... i just feel that he is very side to his mum side than to my parent... i don know how to say... but i just got the feeling... this weekend, he rent car. i feel very happy cos i don have to take public transport home... to get crowded with abnn.. but.... this weekend is mainly together with his mum n his brother... mean his family... he got say b4 that if he rent car will drive my parent out but eventually if i nv ask for he also wun do that... i know i'm unreasonable to have such thinking... i not mind going out with ur family but i just feel......... haiz don know how to put in word.. i know u love ur mum alot alot... i also love my parent tooo... i just feel that sometime can u think of my parent abit... just abit also can.. i know my parent is chu ren... hard to get along but just think abit for them n for mi... each time u think of ur mum, like want bring her go where when u rent car or when u got car.. my heart feel upset that u did not even mention to bring my parent to where... i don know u can feel ma... even though i show sian sian face, n keep saying nothing nothing or pretending nothing actually there is... i just don dare to say out cos i know u will get very pissed with mi... u will feel i'm a unreasonable gf... i think i love u more than u love mi ... that y always have unreasonable thinking... i don know my emotional very easy get shake...
Haiz i stressed i just cry... cry cry cry.... sad sad sad... emo emo emo emo... keep all sad thing in my heart.... think the memory is full liao... got to burst out liao..
No wonder my friend say mi y everyday i'm sad de... becos keep too much in my heart but don let go... :'(
Hopefully u nv read this entry ...
i don want to quarrel becos of this...
i will pretend nothing n forget it..
but i think is hard..... :'(
by Kelly ; 10:59 AM
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I hate my stupid dad!!!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Recently has been very depressed...
i'm sick n tired of my life with such income..
Paying half of my salary out every month..
i left nothing to spend..
Reading other ppl blog recently...
found out most of them going for holiday n is the place i want to go (Taiwan)...
i'm sad that i can't even have the money to go on a small trip to genting..
each time i went to holiday...
come back always struggling how to survive for the rest of the day...
cos my budget is just nice for holiday...
then come back always left abit to survive..
i want to get a better job with higher income..
with such low income i can't manage to save as much to go taiwan...
i'm so envy ppl there can go holiday with out any worries...
i always blame myself for not studying well in secondary...
i always being so upset then make myself suffer...
cry cry cry...
that is the only way i can release my stress or trouble...
i really hope that god will drop some money for mi or can see my situation...
then give mi 4 number for mi to buy 4D..
win liao don have to troubled..
Ytd had a fight with my stupid father...
y always like this..
always want to let go of dog when is not pay by ur own money...
if tot u pick up dog from the street, u also cannot do that always..
don like then let go..
say wat give ppl but u will just throw them at a street...
Ni Zhen De Hen Mei Ren Xin...
I HATE YOU!!!!
don u know got feeling liao mah...
BEBE is like that now BOY BOY u also like that...
Which dog there is no smell de...
Which dog don create noise de...
Got new dog old dog don want...
wat logic is that...
is u who say keep two...
now becos abit of noise from BOY BOY...
u want to let go of him...
then might as well let ur bird fly lah..
ur bird also create so many noise ma..
say wat pet r mine, u have to no right to say a word...
got wing liao lah, can fly liao lah...
Fuc* lor...
i really stress on my financial, my study, my life, my work now
another pop out...
I REALLY SICK N TIRED OF LIVING....
haiz always mi who suffer most...
cry the whole night...
i only know how to cry...
WHAT SHOULD I DO???
by Kelly ; 9:20 AM
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History Repeated
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
History repeated ytd...
i'm disappointed...
i cried sadly ytd night...
M i very difficult to "hong" ?
Just "hong" "hong" mi very difficult ma...
Girl always like ppl to "hong" "hong" awhile then they will not angry anymore...
Wat the meaning that u don know how to "hong?
is not that u r dumb, stupid or useless but just..
Dating almost 4 yrs, u don know my character ma...
Angry also awhile, faster "hong" mi then i will calm down faster...
Just a simple hug or a kiss, i will calm down immediately...
i nv ask u to bed down to ask for forgive..
Just really a hug or a kiss, then i know u cared about mi..
U r not dumb, stupid or useless at all... :(
But sometime u need to be alert abit more to mi..
Actually i'm not really very angry about u sleep,
but u can tell mi early that u r tired,
don feel like meeting want to sleep early..
U say out then i will not meet u de ma..
since u didn't say i tot u not tired wun fall sleep so fast..
but then reapeated again..
leave mi alone doing nothing while u sleep..
i tot that 2 hr plus u can stay awake...
pei mi chit chat or wat...
but eventaully u fall asleep..
i don know is it i unreasonable or wat..
But y can't u just say out..
like that i will not waste my trip down seeing u sleep.
I'm tired too but i wun show it out easily...
cos when i see u, my tiredness gone...
I always very eager to meet u de...
but everytime this happened always make mi feel so sian...
i don want to quarrel with u de...
i don want de.. :(
really don want.. :'(
can u sense my feeling?
by Kelly ; 9:49 AM
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